A level Chinese Result Day
Alright, today has been the day that I was looking forward to but rather nervous and worried for since last monday when i got the news that the A level result and A level chinese is going to be out. Jin zhang for jing, irwin, mao, cecilia, weijian, krystal and the many more Jc cluster J2'06 peeps, i can't deny the fact that i was very worried for my own result for chinese. Yesterday, i even talked abt this with denise and even zw, olen and mao. But i just couldn't convince myself to have the faith that everything is going to be okay because being the one that sat for the paper, you will somehow know how well you did. And i freaking know that i screwed my paper by letting 18marks go due to incompletness and errors, so the possibility of getting an A is not high at alll.
Sigh. The moment that i was so looking forward too and yet so wanted to escape from came and went. All that was left behind was a big and i mean BIG disappointment yet AGAIN. I cried when i got my result even though as much as i tried to fight back the tears, to minimize the embarrassent, i couldn't. Some even think that i'm crazy when they knew my result is a Freaking B grade with oral distinction. But i guess, at this point of time, it not just about passing, its about expectation.
Growing up in a chinese speaking family, my mother was the one that helped me most in my chinese foundation as that is the only subject that she could do. Also because of this, Chinese has always been my strongest subject. For my 15 years of education thus far, i have never gotten anything below an A grade or band 1 for all my major chinese exams. This A level chinese, being the last chinese exam that i'm going to take in my education i suppose, will of course be expected to be graded an A too. And i really wanted it to be one to give a beautiful ending to my 'chinese journey'. I think, at this point, its no longer parent's expectation but my own...It has turned into my own expectation to get an A grade for chinese. At least, its something that i can look back and be proud of. However people say chinese is not important, its still one of my little achievements. But sadly to say, i failed to do so. I'm still feeling so void inside now. Its really so near yet so far. I mean, i didn't finish the paper and yet still manage to get a B. So if i finished the paper, i would be able to get an A. Its so wasted. I feel like boxing myself for not doing fast enough and happily took my own sweet time! Roars.
I'm so terribly upset and i dunno if i should retake the paper just for that A. People will say that io'm crazy and true enough, i don't wanna go throught the agony of sitting through chinese lessons again. But its so...B with dist oral is so so so so damn close to and A! Roars. Even though before i took my result, i kept trying to psycho myself that B is the minimum grade i can accept to get, so if i really got it, I'll be ok with it. But the truth is, i couldn't couldn't couldn't. I really really really wanted an A. I guess nobody can understand why i'm feeling the way i'm feeling. Roars.
Anyway, everybody in 2T30 passed! so none will need to take chi B this yr. Congrats ppl! Good job done =)
And Congrats to jing, irwin, krystal, weijian, mich, huiying, weilun, cecilia and all the others for the As and Bs that you all have gotten for your A level! What else can i say...that you guys are really shining for God in your campuses! Shine on peeps! I'm so proud of you guys =)
Sigh. The moment that i was so looking forward too and yet so wanted to escape from came and went. All that was left behind was a big and i mean BIG disappointment yet AGAIN. I cried when i got my result even though as much as i tried to fight back the tears, to minimize the embarrassent, i couldn't. Some even think that i'm crazy when they knew my result is a Freaking B grade with oral distinction. But i guess, at this point of time, it not just about passing, its about expectation.
Growing up in a chinese speaking family, my mother was the one that helped me most in my chinese foundation as that is the only subject that she could do. Also because of this, Chinese has always been my strongest subject. For my 15 years of education thus far, i have never gotten anything below an A grade or band 1 for all my major chinese exams. This A level chinese, being the last chinese exam that i'm going to take in my education i suppose, will of course be expected to be graded an A too. And i really wanted it to be one to give a beautiful ending to my 'chinese journey'. I think, at this point, its no longer parent's expectation but my own...It has turned into my own expectation to get an A grade for chinese. At least, its something that i can look back and be proud of. However people say chinese is not important, its still one of my little achievements. But sadly to say, i failed to do so. I'm still feeling so void inside now. Its really so near yet so far. I mean, i didn't finish the paper and yet still manage to get a B. So if i finished the paper, i would be able to get an A. Its so wasted. I feel like boxing myself for not doing fast enough and happily took my own sweet time! Roars.
I'm so terribly upset and i dunno if i should retake the paper just for that A. People will say that io'm crazy and true enough, i don't wanna go throught the agony of sitting through chinese lessons again. But its so...B with dist oral is so so so so damn close to and A! Roars. Even though before i took my result, i kept trying to psycho myself that B is the minimum grade i can accept to get, so if i really got it, I'll be ok with it. But the truth is, i couldn't couldn't couldn't. I really really really wanted an A. I guess nobody can understand why i'm feeling the way i'm feeling. Roars.
Anyway, everybody in 2T30 passed! so none will need to take chi B this yr. Congrats ppl! Good job done =)
And Congrats to jing, irwin, krystal, weijian, mich, huiying, weilun, cecilia and all the others for the As and Bs that you all have gotten for your A level! What else can i say...that you guys are really shining for God in your campuses! Shine on peeps! I'm so proud of you guys =)
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