When I was younger...

I thought that I want to be a Gynecologist,
but I know that I will not make it.

I thought that I want to be a Sport Player or an Adventurer,
but I know that I am not cut out for that.

I thought that I want to be an Archaeologist,
but I know that it is not possible to be one here.

I thought that I want to be a Historian,
but I did not pursue in it.

I thought that I want to be a Psychologist,
but I felt that I will be too sick through it.

I thought that I want to be an Astrologist,
but I soon got bored of it.

I thought that I want to be a Nutritionist,
but I did not really set my heart to it.

My friend thought that I have the cut to be a Lawyer or an Entrepreneur
but I think that they are nuts to think so.

And finally, though I have not spoken before,

I want to be a Wedding Planner, an Event Coordinator,
I want to work as a Cameraman/Photographer for the couples,
I want to be a Cameraman that shoots for concert also,
I want to be a part in TV/movie production,
I want to work in a audio recording studio too or even as a Deejay.

But God, I chose to turn away from this again and You have shut the door for me.
I know there's no turning back,
I know I got to continue.
I don't know if I'm going to make it, but with You, I know I can.
If its meant to be, Father, I believe that my road will somehow intersect the media industry someday. If not, then let it be.
God, it really really doesn't matter what is my want anymore, but what You want for me rather.
It is not about my desire but Your will, Lord, that I want to serve.
Not my desire but Your will...