Health

I just vomited again. Second time in a week. I dunno whats wrong but I just felt that my heart may just give up on me anytime literally. Sometimes it beats so slow and weak that I can't even feel it. Sometimes there seems to be something pressing down on it that I feel so uncomfortable. Sometimes it's beating so fast. The beats are so irregular that I can't explain why. Would it be because of my eating habit, lifestyle or what? One thing for certain is that I am no longer as healthy and fit as before. Haha. Sigh. =/

Fear of death indeed. Sometime I just wanna commit suicide and die but when death may be just so near me, I really wouldn't want it to happen. God not at this age please, not when I'm about to step into a new phase, not when I have still so much yet accomplish, yet seen...

P.S- Oh right, I have not gave a complete account for my 2 previous posts...when time and energy permits, I will. I just wanna try and turn in now...11+pm...have not been sleeping so early for so long. Taadaa people! It's MONDAY tomorrow! Blue blue blue...sigh =(