Is there really such thing as a best friend? How would you define the differences between a good friend and a best friend? Can a person really have many different special best friends? To some, yes, and some no. If there are really such cases as a special friend, then how can the person that once made you felt so special be the same one that makes you feel so insignificant when time gets along or when new people are added to that person's life? Does the problem lies with oneself or the person that had made one felt special? Is oneself being too sensitive and expecting too much or had the degree of the specialness just reduced overtime or according to season?

Probably because I've lost too many friends according to the change in season and phases that I no longer dare to or even bother to find anymore close friends. As much as I long for one, beside God, I don't believe that there will be one...

Likewise, as how Calista mentioned in her blog, I agree that it is really very sad case that the love bank of two friends are of different love units and I really haven't figure out how to deal with such situation even though I dare say, such scenario is actually very common- the different degree of friendship existing between parties. And I think what she fear towards constructing close friendship has slowly become what I fear either as I reflect through, even though I remember telling and tried to persuade her to buy my view which held a more positive view from all these, just barely a month ago...

Gradually...I find myself not believing in mankind or any sort of love they can give...But I really do not wish to be propelling towards such state..so dark, so cynical and skeptical... The truth is always ugly..?