I think I've been under the weather lately. In a sense, I'm suffering from quite major mood swings that I find it difficult myself to cope with. One moment, going on happy cheery high energetic and all and the very next, emoing stoning and thinking deeply with regards to I don't know what. Its like your mind is thinking about a thousand and one million things but yet not really sorting out any at all. I've never really be like that before considering the fact that I'm not in my lowest moment in life, I'm not really facing any huge setbacks or problems or what. But somehow, I just feel like hiding...

But at the same time, when I'm in the world,
I long to be a small kid.
I long to hug my Big Daddy.
I long to lie in His embrace.
I long to be with Him, in His presence always.

That night I just got this image of Adam trying to hide from God but to no avail. When I saw that, I just felt the anxiety of being exposed and even to hear from Him. I know that no matter how hard I try to run away, shunning and hiding, I'm still so exposed to my Father because there is basically nowhere for me to hide.

"You know me inside and out, You know exactly how i was made, bit by bit, how i was sculpted from nothing into something."

What am I so afraid of? What am I hiding from?

Choices to be considered,
Heart to be decided,
Decisions to be made,
Actions to be taken.