Initially was supposed to update since my last post was like a week ago? But I'm so emoing now, ain't got the mood too. It was so bad that i broke down just now...I'm just so sad. Actually i've been emoing since Friday...So many things have been happening, good and bad, big and small. But what i really just wanna say now is that... I MISS MY 130 130! I've been missing them since Thurs? I dunno why...
So i went blog visiting just now to their blogs and lo and behold, all of us posted about missing our 130 130 clique/gathering/GG!! But i guess our busy busy schedules are really keeping us apart. Val and Pb has got mid-years while Val and I are starting to sink in our poly work and tests coming too. We've been trying to meet up since end of March! Argh..!
I miss you girls. Valley, Melly and PB!!
I miss school (CJ).
I miss the journey there together with Mel and Val and Jo.
I miss the stress from getting there on time.
I miss the uniform and tie and pe attire.
I miss our GG sessions.
I miss the lessons.
I miss the canteen food, from the Chinese to the Malay to the Western to the Jap, from rice to noodle to meat to snacks to bread to pau to fruits, from milk tea to milo to fruit juice to ribena.
I miss our blue blue toilet.
I miss having a home classroom.
I miss our windy corridor.
I miss our cold cold lect. theater, from the blue to the green to the yellow to the old-church lookalike.
I miss our HIONG P.E.
I miss shooting and all.
I miss bball with the guys, frisbee with the class.
I miss my J2's friends and then eye-candy.
I miss everybody in class, from the slackers to the muggers to the guai kias to the disruptive to the lame ones to the jokers, both the girls and guys.
I miss both my cosy front corner in class and the very happening back row.
I miss the teachers, from mel ho to fanny/fanky to ms yang to witch toh to mario fool to mark lee to la'brooy to lao shi to violet teo to gill leong.
I miss the sneaking away for reporting/being late for school.
I miss escaping from school from the back gate to town or tpy, dodging from the teachers and cameras.
I miss running away from the DM to the VP to the P.
I even miss the stress, the heart palpitating and anxiety before any tests/exams, thinking if i will make it or not.
SIGH. God... what can I say? Where I'm now is all because of my decisions and actions. What more can I say? But must I go through this. Must it all be in this way?
I think my capacity has shrunk, I'm so easily stress out and beaten nowadays. Schedule in school is really piling up and very soon this sem. will be over! I'm still so not use to being on my own to check out if there's any email/announcements/work/notes online to be done/informed. and I'm constantly lost in knowing what homework has to be prepared. and 'smart' me being the class rap has to struggle to be alert so as to info my class or to get the stuff needed prepared or done and all. Omg.
Just when I'm trying to stand up and rise again,in both spiritual and secular arena, all things seems to come falling down...
There's still service in 8 hours time. Oh God, I surrender.
So i went blog visiting just now to their blogs and lo and behold, all of us posted about missing our 130 130 clique/gathering/GG!! But i guess our busy busy schedules are really keeping us apart. Val and Pb has got mid-years while Val and I are starting to sink in our poly work and tests coming too. We've been trying to meet up since end of March! Argh..!
I miss you girls. Valley, Melly and PB!!
I miss school (CJ).
I miss the journey there together with Mel and Val and Jo.
I miss the stress from getting there on time.
I miss the uniform and tie and pe attire.
I miss our GG sessions.
I miss the lessons.
I miss the canteen food, from the Chinese to the Malay to the Western to the Jap, from rice to noodle to meat to snacks to bread to pau to fruits, from milk tea to milo to fruit juice to ribena.
I miss our blue blue toilet.
I miss having a home classroom.
I miss our windy corridor.
I miss our cold cold lect. theater, from the blue to the green to the yellow to the old-church lookalike.
I miss our HIONG P.E.
I miss shooting and all.
I miss bball with the guys, frisbee with the class.
I miss my J2's friends and then eye-candy.
I miss everybody in class, from the slackers to the muggers to the guai kias to the disruptive to the lame ones to the jokers, both the girls and guys.
I miss both my cosy front corner in class and the very happening back row.
I miss the teachers, from mel ho to fanny/fanky to ms yang to witch toh to mario fool to mark lee to la'brooy to lao shi to violet teo to gill leong.
I miss the sneaking away for reporting/being late for school.
I miss escaping from school from the back gate to town or tpy, dodging from the teachers and cameras.
I miss running away from the DM to the VP to the P.
I even miss the stress, the heart palpitating and anxiety before any tests/exams, thinking if i will make it or not.
SIGH. God... what can I say? Where I'm now is all because of my decisions and actions. What more can I say? But must I go through this. Must it all be in this way?
I think my capacity has shrunk, I'm so easily stress out and beaten nowadays. Schedule in school is really piling up and very soon this sem. will be over! I'm still so not use to being on my own to check out if there's any email/announcements/work/notes online to be done/informed. and I'm constantly lost in knowing what homework has to be prepared. and 'smart' me being the class rap has to struggle to be alert so as to info my class or to get the stuff needed prepared or done and all. Omg.
Just when I'm trying to stand up and rise again,in both spiritual and secular arena, all things seems to come falling down...
There's still service in 8 hours time. Oh God, I surrender.
Labels: Heart matters
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