Thinkings

Sigh. I'm at work now but I've finished all my tasks, so there is nothing much for me to do now.
It's still raining outside, for the 5th day in a row. What's wrong with the weather man? Mood swing and emo like me? Yar, the weather is so crazy. Rain stop rain stop. Leaving from any sheltered place is machiam like playing game liddat. Must catch the timing when the rain decide to stop and reach the next destination before it comes pouring down again like madddddddddd.

Okay, why am i blogging about the weather? Weather talk? Haha. I really hate weather/small talks and nowadays, I seem to be doing that more and more, especially during this season when I keep meeting new people. People whom I don't know will be here to stay or to just pass by. Seriously, after so many failed friendship, after so many people who walked out of my life, I don't really want to continue to think that friends are here to stay anymore. And I'm just learning and adapting to get use to them walking out of my life. And each time, it still hurts as much. Sigh. Wadeva. Being stabbed once, being stabbed twice,being stabbed multiples of times are still being stabbed. So actually, I had died a lot of times? Hah.

There's actually so much that I wanna say, but I really don't dare to share them anymore. If not, the words always get stuck just when I wanna open my mouth. Most of the times, I just lack the courage. Or if not, just when I wanna share, the opposite party always suddenly happen to have something to attend to and leave me there dumbfounded.

I'm so fan so fan so fan.
So fan about my enrolment.
So fan about going back to school.
So fan about the Cg and the connect groups.
So fan about my family.
So fan about my friends.
So fan about my financial.
So fan about myself.
Suddenly there's just so many things to settle.

I just feel like leaving everything behind and go on a Great Escape.
To a place where I don't need to care about anything or anybody.
To a place where I can pass each day as it is.
To a place where it is close to Mother Nature.
To a place where I am all by myself and everyday, the only companion I can have is Daddy.
(Actually, when I'm typing this paragraph, the picture that comes to my mind is a nice beach house by the seaside with a nice pouch for nice sea view and sea breeze. And behind this house, on one side will be the forest and on the other side is a big green patch of grassland. Maybe I should add in a horse and a dog as my extra companion. That will be nice =) And I will spend the day tending to Mother Nature's creation or bury my nose in all the wonderful books and music with a good drink(coffee/tea/juices) or I can fellowship with my lappy also.) Okay, maybe I've really read too much of Nicholas Sparks' books. Sigh.