A lesson learnt on PS-ing...

I'm feeling kinda troubled and disappointed now...Well today was suppose to have training and no i didn't overslept...i woke up but i'm not going for training cos i arranged with jing and weijian yest night that we will go over to hougang sportshall to play badminton or hit the gym..so i make my way taking 89 to pasir ris to agnes, my junior, house to borrow her rackets and bag since i don have enough to spare... Walked passed Hai sing and some memories flooded back..its been so long since i walked down the same past again! Took a pic of the school...and saw the banners that we have every year carrying the theme for that particular year.

2002- Deeper roots, Greater heights

2003- Growing to serve, Serving to grow

2004- Branching out, Touching lifes

2005- Naturing character, Harvesting lifes

Kinda meaningful huh? But sadly..my memories of my secondary life seems to be fading..I'm now like remembering today and living for tomorrow only..this is what happens when you lost you directions if life, wondering and wandering...

Anyway, i met agnes and took the stuff for her and went to take 89 back...but by this time, i'm already waiting for weijian or jing to msg but it didn't come..so i just sat on 89 and thinking if i should drop at my house or go all the way to hougang..cos i got a feeling that jing is still sleeping...I sat and took all the way to hougang in the end..and true enough, weijian couldn't get jing...so i just wander and walk to the place where we're suppose to meet and then to a HDB void deck nearby and sat and waited and waited..Finally seah jing woke up..but its way past our meeting time already..and just before that weijian and i decided not to meet anymore..I told jing but she said weijian can wait for her so i asked weijian whats going on and he told me to wait for jing to check her schedule first....and then...seah jing msged to say that she had to be in church at jw at night..so she can't meet le..Ta daa..my heart literally sank...I so didn't know wat to say..how to response..even thou i'm kinda upset, disappointed and angry..all i did was to say 'haha ok. nvm. next time bahz'. Great...My bag strap also came off at the time...Even greater...Bad things always happen together huh? So i took 89 and go all the way back to pasir ris again...and just 'nice' agnes went for piano class so i've to wait again...and i went to get myself bubble tea...After passing her the stuff, i took 89 back home...Sigh..so i sacrificed my training just liddat for nothing...i don blame anyone..nobody asked me to..and i shouldn't even in the first place..

So just liddat...i still manage to spent 7 hours out! and been on tpe back and fro for 4 times! I spent my day away...walking in the rain and waiting, walking and waiting...and letting all the bad things happen... Great huh? Back home i was so upset...didn't wanna talk abt this matter..but it was so great that i finally blasted it all out on Adrian...but the funny thing is that went he said he is going to talk to jing abt this ps-ing ppl thingy, i got all defensive of her..

Well Adrian always thinks that seah jing has got this ps-ing ppl problem..and my reason for her is that she is popular and so lots of ppl will be asking her out at the same time...and she is a cg helper...a pcgl rising up.. so she will have a lot of stuff to do..and its right that she puts church stuff first before frenz and fun..or wadeva it is..haha..how noble wanz? I believe that jing is a person who knows what she wants and where she is going in life..so definitely she will know which stuff is more important to attend to...even thou its not very right to always last min cmi..and its not right to oversleep and ended up not being able to meet the appointment you have with others...but then on what ground can me and adrian tell her? We all make the mistake of oversleeping and not being able to attend our stuff...and maybe to seah jing..what adrian deemed as ps-ing isn't to her..cos she is just putting the right priority in life? Haiz..i dunno...maybe i'm just scared that telling her on this issue will affect our relation....and i think jing actually isn't that bad...maybe its just they way a person is brought up bahz and the environment..for her, her mum is her alarm clock on sch days but her mum is a working mum..so anytime after she left for work, jing has to rely on her hp's alarm which don't really works on her so that explain why she is late in meeting up most of the time during hols..and also jing herself is nice so that explains why ppl ard her are nice and most of the time accommodating to her...all i can say is she is just blessed surrounded by such great ppl...and that also explain why she always got ppl helping her out in stuff...

But anyway what i really wanna say here is that this whole incident causes me to realised that it isn't right and nice to stand up on ppl or event because you overslept. Its not a valid reason. and even if you do, at least apologise and make up for it? Cos ppl take time and effort to arrange all these outings/events or wadeva...and why ppl do that? Its because the person treasure the relationships shared. If you don't really care abt a person, will you go through all the effort...troubles...extra miles..and even sacrifices to maintain it? Don't you realise that once contact has died-ed, the relation also died-ed too...ppl will just drifted further apart..and who knows..it may all be just forgotten...

wanz- all emo. upset, disappointed and confused