There. Today marks the first day of school for my term 2. Received a call while I was still Zzz from Ms Rozi that HAP tut will be cancelled which means my lessons will only be from 3-5pm since there is no morning lab also. How cool? I told myself that it's an extended holiday from my Daddy =)
Another good news is that the official impromptu speech test I had today went alright even though I wasn't sure if I'm going to have it today and so didn't do any sort of preparation for it. My question was " Whether Singaporean youths who are drop out do not have the opportunities to succeed in life."
Easy question! and I should be able to deliver a great job but I think I didn't really did a good job in a sense that my sentence structure and grammar wasn't as good as supposed to be and I stuttered a lil here and there. Plus my mind totally went blank went the first bell rang and blur me thought my time was up and so hastily concluded w/o finishing all my point. But God is good! When I finished, the class actually burst into a round of applauds and Ms Chong also commented that she thinks that I did a pretty great job.
Sigh. Nowadays, I'm really confused about the expectation that I should have. Have I been expecting too much? In all that I do, things that I said or even in giving things to people, I will always hesitate because I wonder if it's good enough and should I or should I not. I don't know. For example, like for my performance in school, I will think that it's just average but to the others, they will see it as good. Is there really such a big difference between poly and jc? Or am I just being delusional myself? I'm sure my work now will be considered average or even bad back in CJ, but now it's like not bad and even good? I'm finding it so hard to find a benchmark to set for myself.
And to bless people or to 'counsel', I will think if it really bless or help the person? Or issit just another redundant act. All this does not apply to school only but also in church. I don't know...have I been thinking too much? Tired.
Another good news is that the official impromptu speech test I had today went alright even though I wasn't sure if I'm going to have it today and so didn't do any sort of preparation for it. My question was " Whether Singaporean youths who are drop out do not have the opportunities to succeed in life."
Easy question! and I should be able to deliver a great job but I think I didn't really did a good job in a sense that my sentence structure and grammar wasn't as good as supposed to be and I stuttered a lil here and there. Plus my mind totally went blank went the first bell rang and blur me thought my time was up and so hastily concluded w/o finishing all my point. But God is good! When I finished, the class actually burst into a round of applauds and Ms Chong also commented that she thinks that I did a pretty great job.
Sigh. Nowadays, I'm really confused about the expectation that I should have. Have I been expecting too much? In all that I do, things that I said or even in giving things to people, I will always hesitate because I wonder if it's good enough and should I or should I not. I don't know. For example, like for my performance in school, I will think that it's just average but to the others, they will see it as good. Is there really such a big difference between poly and jc? Or am I just being delusional myself? I'm sure my work now will be considered average or even bad back in CJ, but now it's like not bad and even good? I'm finding it so hard to find a benchmark to set for myself.
And to bless people or to 'counsel', I will think if it really bless or help the person? Or issit just another redundant act. All this does not apply to school only but also in church. I don't know...have I been thinking too much? Tired.
Labels: Heart matters, School
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