helpless

I dunno. I really wonder if i can do this on my own. Issit really right not to tell any of my family yet? But how am i suppose to tell them? I really dont have the courage. Never have i felt so helpless before that i really really dunno what to do and how to do? My heart feels so weak that it may just collaspe anytime and my emotions are still so running high, so unstable. Everyday is an emo day filled with tears after tears. There's just this heavy weight pulling inside. I dunno how long more can i take this? Wont You take it away from me Lord? Why are you letting me go through this? I dont even know what am i good at? I dont even know what i want. I cant even see myself doing anything in the future.

I just feel like letting go of everything and just...