Was suppose to help out in booking seats in the morning at 815am but goodness me only woke up at 8am! Sigh. Made my way down to church after that feeling annoyed with myself and i actually bumped into Olen at the expo station. Saw Irwin there too. And seriously i thought my day is starting to get better because this two person are like my sunshine big bro and sis so seeing them just makes me =)

However, something happened later on before service and it sorta irritated me and there goes my P&W... because i couldn't keep my mind focus. Sigh. I think my mood swing nowadays is getting outa control. Note Wanz, pls note. Service later on didnt help to make me feel better but worst because as i listened to all the reports about the people and the stuff done, i can't help but feel like a loser to be so limited by myself and at the same time limited God. And there i was thinking how i'm at low point where nothing is going right and everything seems so unsettled that i just want to give up and die, when there are so much more people out there that are in worst state and still going on strongly. How weak you're Wanz. Sigh

After service, did a lil bit of catching up here and there with people and caught a few long-time-no-see friends. But what really left an impression was the bump into Jing with Adrian at foyer 3. The conversation went like this:

Jing: Wan Li! Wan Li!
Us: Oh! Hello.
Adrian: Ey, you so bad. Why never reply me online and you actually talked to wanz. (he said sth liddat)
Jing: Oh, must prioritise mah. There's too many ppl to talk to. (and she came over to gimme a hug)
Jing: Ey wanz, you free on sunday, 4pm?
Me: Huh? why? I thought irwin told me we're meeting on wednesday? how come meet on wed and sun?
Jing: Oh, different group of people wat.
Me: Huh? (wondering whos the different group) why must meet so many times?
Jing: Thats because you're special

When i was recalling about that conversation after we parted, immediately the two words 'prioritise' and 'special' struck me. How have i forgotten that even when it comes to people, i must prioritise and not try to take on everybody's request/problems/etc. And i'm suppose to be a God-pleaser and not a man-pleaser because ultimately, it's God's approval that i want and not man's.

And the word special left me thinking ' i'm special? like how? (o.O?) ' because the thought that i'm special didnt really dwell in my mentality at all before and also to think that i'll be on somebody's priority list. Haha. God, You're funny.