School has been nothing much nowadays. I'm practically in school just to play my psp or hang with classmates. There are so few lessons in a day and there's nothing much that the teachers can do with us. So ya, lectures and tutorials are like chilling session.

Saw the result list today after lao shi came to find me to ask about my situation. Apparently brother really like to keep everything so secret that even the teachers dont even know what letter he gave out to us. If i didnt count/assume wrongly, after moderation, both my maths and geog should be 44! WTH. 1 more mark each and i will be gladly promoted to J2 with 5 E grades and i dont even need to bother about sub paper. 1 mark...

Why God? Do you let me go through this?
This price is too heavy to pay.
I cant afford.

Hasnt send in the appeal letter, hasnt got any new regarding the appointment with P.

If God really doesnt help me pull through this time, i really dunno whats gonna happen. The strength to keep going on is depleting so quickly as the time goes by with me waiting...waiting...for the miracle to happen...and death seems to be getting so much clearer and real.
Its gonna be the last day of school tmr and sadly, i dont look forward to the holidays and i'm still thinking of what to do. Continue to go school and pretend that the term hasnt end yet or just tell mum that its the holiday so i dont need to go school and tell her that i'm not promoted yet so i may not get to go school anymore also. Both ways also good game.

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